It has been almost two months since I roamed these parts, hello to anyone still hanging around. I salute you for sticking this blogging blip out. This small hiatus should we call it, wasn't planned or intentioned in the slightest it sort of just organically happened (Okay, that is a little white lie, part of me felt it coming). SO, where have I been, what have I been doing and why did I take a break?
1. I went on holiday
Shortly after my last post, on the 25th of August, I departed for a two week holiday in Turkey; the type of holiday where you do absolutely nothing and the itinerary for day reads something like this:
Lie by pool
Get in pool
Get out of pool
Lie by pool
*Break for food*
Repeat from the top
By the 10th day, I had forgotten what strenuous activity or an increased heart rate felt like, safe to say I am not a 'sit by the pool holiday' kinda gal. Fantastic to have a break, none the less and a great way to distance myself from social media/the blogging world. A digital detox is incredibly liberating and as the days went on I increasingly gave less of shit as to what was happening on the internet. So much so when I returned to the U.K my disregard for all social media platforms continued. Eventually, Instagram posts slowed down, and both Twitter and the blog went silent.
2. I fell out of love with blogging
My relationship with blogging has always felt very tumultuous. I am by no means a natural writer, as some of you have ruthlessly pointed out (Note to trolls - don't forget to hide your IP address) and I've often doubted my place in the blogging world. Whether the accelerated growth of the blogging world has imposed this pressure or it's just me being neurotic for no rational reason, I've always felt the stress to create regular content with intent or a message per se. As if solely posting an outfit with credits isn't enough. I'm always questioning 'what is it I'm trying to communicate through the blog?' and 'what is my purpose?' to no avail which induced severe social (media) Anxiety. Yep, because social media anxiety is surely a thing now? During the past 5-6 months, this feeling over consumed me, the fun in blogging dissipated, and as a result, my content quality started to slack (remember when I had ideas and put energy into creating posts. See here). It took removing myself from the situation (going on a holiday) to comprehend how much these feelings were impacting me negatively.
3. I started a new job
I started Brittanybathgate.co.uk (formerly Style and Wellbeing) during an unsatisfied stage in my life: my job wasn’t fulfilling me, I was missing the life Dean and I previously had in Australia, and I didn’t have anyone to share my love of clothes with. (First world problems) A blog was an outlet for me, a place for me to feel creative again, meet new friends, learn new skills and share to others my style. Earlier this year I started a new job, which in contrast to my previous, I couldn't enjoy more. I've spent most of this year channeling all of my energy into this new job (not so new anymore) leaving little juice for blogging so naturally, the blog has taken a back seat.
4. Life changes
So big news, WE FINALLY HAVE A HOUSE! It's not much of a house, but the important thing is we have one. For any long time followers you may remember all the way back in 2015 I mentioned Dean, and I were looking to take our first step on the property ladder, specifically somewhere that required a lot of TLC, and by TLC I mean knocking down walls and rebuilding parts. Honest to god either some unknown karma came back and bit us in the arse, or I jinxed the entire process by blogging about our intentions because from the word go everything that could go wrong, did go wrong. Eight months later, though, a two up two down mid terraced house with a 95-foot garden is finally ours to do what we please with. More on this and our progress later! I'm thinking vlogs?!
With wedding planning and the reno project in full swing (is it terrible to say that creating and partially building a home from scratch is an incy wincy tiny bit more exciting than our nuptials), I feel like I've been propelled from irresponsible, disorganised 20 something to this thing called an 'adult'. I've got adult jobs now and a diary full of adult jobs to prove it. Priorities! Priorities! Priorities!
Stepping away from the sometimes dog eat dog atmosphere of social media and blogging puts things in perspective, it generates new ideas and makes you miss the community of amazing people you've met via it. Anyway, enough of the woe is me, back to the here and now. My work life balance is amended; I'm almost caught up with emails/ Instagram comments, and I'm ready to give it another shot.